AI BELIEVE

8 01 2012

No doubt if you have been keeping up with Hello! Project for the past week, you must already know the biggest latest announcement. For those who don’t know, Niigaki Risa announced that she will be graduating from Morning Musume and Hello! Project at the end of Morning Musume’s spring concert tour.

Play it cool

Gaki-san is my favorite member of Morning Musume, of Hello! Project. After laying my Kago fandom to rest, Gaki-san is overwhelmingly the heart of my idol fandom. Needless to say, I didn’t know what to think when I read the news on Twitter. How does one react to news like that? To know that someone who you look forward to seeing and hearing will no longer be there is sad.

Secretly, they know a lot that we don't know about

I wasn’t looking forward to the fact that after years of dodging bullets, the graduation has finally come. What’s more, apparently it was supposed to happen even earlier. Admittedly, I felt perhaps Gaki-san was meant to graduate with Takahashi. Perhaps that was part of the reason why Gaki-san was hesitant to write about how she felt about the graduation when Takahashi announced hers. We could speculate forever if Gaki-san was held back by her own will or if they urged her to hold back so that she could meet and train the 10th generation. But I’m not here to speculate, such things are not for me to question.

For whatever reason, Gaki-san didn’t graduate in late September with Takahashi. She’s now set to graduate some time in May. Soon after the announcement I was talking to a friend of mine and with my eyes closed, I had a sudden epiphany. For whatever reason, Gaki-san didn’t graduate in late September with Takahashi. She’s now set to graduate some time in May. I went online and looked up my school calendar and looked up the current schedule of Morning Musume’s spring tour. It occurred to me, somehow… somehow, it could be possible. Somehow, I might be able to see her before she graduated.

SOMEHOW

If indeed Gaki-san is set to graduate on the last concert of the spring tour on May 13th. That places her concert right after I finish school. As it stands it is mere days before my own graduation from school. Do I expect her to graduate on that day? No, however no additional information has been announced that deters me from the current target date.

I have looked forward to seeing Morning Musume live for the longest time. The first night, I frantically started thinking a lot. Is it really possible? Can I go? How much money would I need? What would I need? Where would I stay?

There are so many questions. There are so many things I need to prepare for. I’ve never been out of the country. I’ve never traveled a long distance by myself. I’ve never placed myself into a foreign country where I wasn’t semi-fluent in the language. There’s a lot to consider …

And yet as I was questioning myself at every turn, I realized something. I realized, I wasn’t saying no. I realized, I wasn’t telling myself I couldn’t do it. This time it was different, I was telling myself what do I need to do? What kind of problems would I run into?

Is this love?

At some point, I realized … I was thinking about going to a foreign country, alone, for the first time all for one girl. One girl, who I wouldn’t even talk to, possibly not even make full eye contact with. One girl, who at the end of the day would not know who I was. I was thinking about making one of the biggest decisions in my life all for Gaki-san.

And I thought for a moment … is this love? Now, of course not love, by the standard metric that is a relationship with a companion. But something different all together. The only way I can explain what I felt that night was, “is this love?”. If you are ever in the same situation that I described, think about it and let me know.

Gaki-san in lovely red

Long story short (which I never do on this blog), I entertained the idea of going to Japan to see Gaki-san one last time before she would graduate. When Morning Musume came to Anime Expo, they were on the opposite side of the country of me. I resolved I couldn’t go on day one. Did I regret it? Yes.

But as you read, that night I had a very different reaction. I didn’t say it was impossible. I was convincing myself that if Gaki-san meant that much to me, it could be possible. Well, what if it weren’t possible? I would never know unless I tried, wouldn’t I? What if I tried and couldn’t make it? Well, at least I knew I tried. What if I could have tried harder, wouldn’t I regret that I was so close? That was where I came up with my resolve. I didn’t want to be me years ago who didn’t even try to make Anime Expo happen. I didn’t want to give up before I even tried.

Sometimes life changes in the oddest ways. Some people find their calling in the most unforeseen hobbies. Other people find the love of their life in some freak accident. Morning Musume has a lot of meaning to me. I believe that this graduation is not meant to be a concert that will merely be recorded on DVD for fans to reminisce and future fans to see. If anything, Takahashi graduating first taught me one important thing and that’s the meaning of, AI Believe.

AI BELIEVE

I believe that if this means as much to me as I believe it does, I will make it happen. I believe that I won’t let anything stop me from getting on a plane to Japan and getting into that concert hall. I believe that this graduation means so much more than just a step in my fandom. I believe I will make it to Japan to see Gaki-san graduate from the group that I have come to and will continue to hold dear to my heart.

~Siggy, who almost teared up writing the last paragraph~





Inspiring

12 12 2010

Less than one week left before what I feel will be the biggest graduation concert ever for Morning Musume. Maybe the members are not as popular as Nacchi or as instrumental as Iida , but there are 3 graduating! For anyone else who’s having a hard time as the time is ticking by here’s some inspiration.

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The image is from earlier snapshots of Rival Survival. And even though you can’t see everyone’s face clearly the colors delineate everyone. Whenever I look at the photo I feel truly inspired. Just like at Koharu’s graduation, they have a huddle onstage. And to have it onstage really shows the girls and their earnest hard work. I can’t wait to cry streams watching this concert…

Savor the last couple of days as Morning Musume will be undergoing one of the biggest transformations it has gone through since the inclusion of the 2nd generation. For better or for worse? Who knows, we’ll just have to weather it out and hope for the best. Now go and listen to that awesome B-side, Inspiration.

GANBATTEIKIMA~SSHOI!

~Siggy, who has his Rival Survival gear ready for the 15th~





TOISU!!!

15 02 2010

Toisu! Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

Also happy Valentines Day everyone! I hope you’re having a great V-day like myself sitting at home going through the piles of work I have. But if you’re actually having a good time, that’s great to hear. I usually don’t really celebrate Valentines Day but this year I had a special treat for myself on Valentines Day (for all intents and purposes 2/13 will be V-day for me this year). And yes, I treat myself due to the fact that I can’t accept chocolates (allergic) and usually have no prospective love interest to really celebrate Hallmark Day.

The other night I had the pleasure of seeing POLYSICS live at the Blender Theatre at the Gramercy Theatre in New York City. For those who may not know of POLYSICS, they are a new wave rock Japanese band. They are well known for their crazy antics and eccentric costumes and songs. But that’s one of the reasons why I love them, they have such originality and great music.

POLYSICS OR DIE!!!Kayo, the multi-talented keyboardist, vocoder, vocals, synthesizer, bassist, has announced that she will be leaving the band. It has been about two years in the making. I first heard this news on December 24th, so at the time I thought it was a horrible Christmas present as that would’ve killed my chance of ever meeting her. But lo and behold they embarked on an American tour for January and February. They performed on February 13th in New York City and I was there. Because I had to see Kayo before she left. Read more for my night in the Big Apple with POLYSICS.

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Wonderful Hearts Summer 2008

7 11 2008

Last week I had the pleasure of watching the Wonderful Hearts Summer 2008 Concert. And boy, it was a joy to watch. I could write about everything but that would be such a long boring post. So I will simply write highlights and my most important thoughts regarding the concert in general. And of course I include pictures for fear that it would be too boring of a post otherwise (which come on… we all know it would be).

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